| I miss her like crazy! she is always on my mind. i can feel her running through my hear and my brain like it was one of those toys gerbils use. Her whispers in the middle of the night or just before I go to sleep wake me up but no one is there. I am lost with out her and yet need to be lost to find my own way. I just mis her sooo much. She is my Anti-Drug, and I want her back. I wanna be drug free around her. I wanna be the best me that I can be when she is around or when I know I am going to see her.
Constantly I wonder is she feels the same way, if she is getting as attached to me as I am her. It hurts to not be sure exactly. I check facebook all the time to see if she has left me a new message or post on my wall, but it is more likely she left my roommate or another friend of hers a post or message then me... his just sucks. I am happy though cause she is in a relationship with me even if it isn't on facebook..(which makes me wonder why not?) but seriously when she gets back in like 2 weeks I get to see her so I'll happy to think about that!
I like her so much that I know soon I won't be saying I like you a lot a lot a lot, but that I love you and am in love with you. She is just that amazing! But does she think the same of me?
Ughs...
-Lighters
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| Okay so she could be dead, I seriously doubt it but it's always a possibility, but with that possibility I might just start doing things I rally don't want to do... anyways she stood me up and then never got back to me yesterday. How can you do that to a friend? I again am lost. and have a pit of frustration in my belly.
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| Maybe I am the same person I was 3 years ago, maybe I have barely changed barely grown up...
I am addicted to cigarettes (sadly), my frinds at college would deffiently call me a stoner, I am unmotivated. Still interested in the same type of things, romance, rock and roll, Native Americans, Boy Scouts, Anarchy, and now all so Peace Studies.
But the real trouble I am haing is with guess who... dum duh dum, Karli.
Yep Karli!
I kissed her!
It took almost 17 years but I finally hooked up with Karli. Given that I was probably very stoned and her a little drunk it doesn't matter to me the way I was when it happened, I'm just happy it happened at all.
So then what is my problem...i haven't dated any one in almost a year. Claire a good friend of mine now, was my last g/f and she broke up with me on my birthday when I turned 19.
So on top of all that, Karli has always know I have been in love with her but I have no clue how she really feels about me. I want to be with her not jus kissing but romantically. I want to introduce her as my girlfriend not just my best friend who I have known since I was a kid.
I am lost!
and I don't want to scare her away...
Help me please...
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